Friday

For most people this is the beginning of the weekend, for me it is just another day as a mom. So that means no going out. I thought I posted something yesterday but I guess it didn't save. Anyways I moved some more steps towards getting my books published I started to combine the stories into a manuscript. Unfortunately it doesn't look like I am going to get the money I need to renew my real estate license.

So I am watching "He's just not that into you" and the guy I am dating doesn't show any of those signs yet I am not sure if he is into me or not. I f*cking hate dating. It's not that he is the only guy who has asked me out. It's just that I turned all the other guys down. The thing is I like this guy. Anyways, I am insane. I need to meet someone else to date who is more into me and that I like too. Why is it all the other guys I met I am not into them? I should probably just focus on my career.

Since I didn't get the money to renew my re lic. I am getting a vocational assessment on Tuesday. I pray to God, or whatever higher power is out there, since I don't believe in any religion. Please let this help me find a real freaking job, a damn career. It is ridiculous I have worked since I was fifteen. Not just one job but several jobs at the same time. And every time I have had a career I let some god awful man complain I was working too much and convince me that I should quit to be with him more. Then you know what happens?? Well I change to some job with less hours and no potential, for some guy who supposedly loves me. Unfortunately two of those guys I married; and one cheated on me several times. The other ended up to be a psycho stalker.

Ok I am venting... Positive things will happen on their own. Right?